Since we have moved, I have struggled with finding my “purpose”. But what does “finding purpose” in life actually mean? According to at University of Minnesota study, “Your life purpose consists of the central motivating aims of your life—the reasons you get up in the morning. Purpose can guide life decisions, influence behavior, shape goals, offer a sense of direction, and create meaning. For some people,purpose is connected to vocation—meaningful, satisfying work”
In Kansas City I found that I was balancing my life the way that really made me feel happy. As a Libra, the core of who I am really is about balance. I have always wanted to find that happy medium of being a mom, being a business woman and somehow also giving back to the community in a charitable way. those are 3 things that are very important to me.
The last few years I have worked as a wardrobe stylist, and a writer which was perfect because it was freelance. I was still be able to take the kids to school, pick them up, be able to watch them in sports, and activities, and be able to cook them dinner at night and tuck them into bed. I was also very involved in the FIRE foundation which provides funding for the tools and the special education teachers at Catholic Schools in the Kansas City area. This allows inclusive education for children with special needs, so that they can attend parochial school alongside their friends and siblings.
Since we have moved I have solely been at home with the kids; doing the same routine day in and day out. Now, don’t get me wrong, I feel grateful to be able to do this “job”. But, I feel like I am missing that thing that really gets me excited to get out of bed each day. Right now I have that groundhog day feeling, and it isn’t all that motivating. I feel bad that JUST being a parent isn’t giving me purpose, and that makes me feel guilty. Do any of you experience this?
I have been soul searching a lot recently, and have been internally trying to figure out what my next move will be. Should I really try and get a children’s book published or is that just a pipe dream? How will I give back in my new community? Is it through our school or another cause that pulls at my heart strings? Should I be more focused on my kids, and give them more of my time? I have always loved connecting with others, especially likeminded creatives. So, how do I do that here in my new town? There is definitely a lot to think about!
I know it won’t all happen at once, and it takes time. The last 10 years of my life were devoted to raising babies. Now that they are in school full time my focus has shifted and I have time to really do something for me. It is exciting and overwhelming all at the same time. I am slightly intimidated yet hopeful about finding my new/next purpose.
I would love to know if any of you struggle with this daily? Or do you find that you have discovered your true purpose in life?
Have a great week everyone!